"Let's move forward towards adoption"
I recall that moment in 2009 crystal clear-
Tears dripped from my chin as David's gently spoken words sounded like a miracle.
His words felt like a miracle because,
timing was illogical by human standards- on so many levels-
We felt too broken.
(that's a story for another time.)
Yet, the passion He placed in our hearts
called us trembling and broken out of the boat.
I again shudder to think
"What if we would have stayed safe?"
We sat on a sofa at Mohale's orphanage on the opposite side of our world waiting to see his face.
It was a miracle that we were even there.
We'd adopted him 18 months prior.
After 18 months of hurdles, hoops and red tape, we had been ready to travel to our son. But our USA government required instead that our adoption of him be legally dissolved and started all over.
It took another full year to dissolve and adopt him from afar for the second time.
The entire process took three years.
Depression? Yes. Horrible depression.
Many told us to give up because
"If it's this hard, it must not be God's will."
One year ago today, we celebrated, in exhilarating victory.
It felt really like a dream coming true- because it was.
|Our boys had known each other barely one day and already were a comfort to each other.|
Link: Joseph's adoption
He was placed in my arms one year ago today. Mohale quietly sat as we gently adored him. This son of mine was afraid and dazed at what was happening. Can you imagine from his perspective? We were strangers to him. Only 2 1/2 years old, he clearly had no idea who we were as we drove away with him from those he loved and the only "home" he'd ever known.
Our frightened son had no idea of the fight for him that had begun long before he'd been abandoned in that ditch by a hurting and desperate woman struggling to survive- long before he'd been brought to Beautiful Gate orphanage and loved by them as a priceless treasure.
his adjustment has been far easier than most post-adoption adjustments.
It speaks volumes about those who loved him passionately in the wait.
It speaks volumes about how they are changing lives of orphans- most of whom are not adoptable.
Have you noticed that our Jesus asks us to walk towards the broken?
(Fear not being broken- it is exactly where He calls us.)
We were told over and over by well meaning others that adopting was not wise.
"Your hearts are too broken for this. What about your children that you are already responsible for? What will this do to them? How will you have time for them all? You will be too tired! What about the cost? You will never be able to pay for it. What about retirement? Isn't this too much pressure on David?"
We've watched our childrens hearts grow in faith as miracles unfolded.
We've watched their broken hearts be comforted and impassioned for those close to His heart.
have become forever changed by passion for Mohale and Joseph.
Our oldest children were forever changed by passion for their little sisters.
Each one is undeterred by the thought of risk.
I do not deserve this honor and I pray daily that our Shepherd loves you through me.
|First Fall together|
What risk have you considered stepping out towards?
With all of our adoptions (and risky biological pregnancies)
I sobbed oceans of tears and begged God to explain cruel suffering to me and still have no answers.
Miracles are only experienced when they are needed. Dare to step out to where miracles were needed.
Because most of us are not rich and feel stressed by finances, Ive got to say-
we had NO MONEY for this adoption.
The miracles of provision to pay for this have been crazy mind blowing-
unbelievable and only explained by supernatural.
(Ive got to do an updated post on those!)
He invites us to walk on water towards Him-
The ONE who carried a cross for our adoption invites us to follow Him back into the valley where His redemption is craved...
Dare to step out of the boat...
These treasures are worth indescribably more than a shattered heart.
Link to his adjustment process: Post adoption Adjustment
Link to Joseph's adoption: Joseph's adoption